Him (my first boyfriend)

my first boyfriend. my only boyfriend. how sad. i am not someone who is going to ask out a guy. and yes i know that the worst that can happen is he will say no. but it seems so wrong when i tried it 2 times!! i wish i was outgoing in that form. I would just like you all to know that i am outgoing when i am with friends. to have the confidence and personality to ask out a guy would be amazing.

so my first boyfriend was actually the first guy I ASKED OUT!! but i will say now that it only lasted 18 hours. and the only date i went on with him was in our school cafateria. i had two oranges and he had a foot long pizza sub. (i thought it was so gross). and i remember it was during the winter, it was snowing out. it was so beutiful. so i comented on it. he looked at me and laphed, your kiding right, it is freezing out there. i knew this wasn't going to last when i felt the "water" falling on me. (if you havent caught onto what "water" is it is his saliva) that was so unplesent. not to mention that he has a very large hatred to those who believe in a higher power. so i was dating a guy who hates me yay!!