best friend

i have never been able to hold a friend for longer then a year. something ALWAYS happens to cause us to lose our frienship, they move, i move, they find a "better" friend, we grow apart. it constently changes. and now i am entering my SR. year and i mightbe able to finly hold a friend! yay me my wish has come true, untill another friend calls up and says "i'm comming back!" uhoh this is not good, she moved in grade 10 and my current friend for 1.5 years really does not like her. i have no ideas what i'm going to do. they are both great friends but they just don't get along.

Him (my first boyfriend)

my first boyfriend. my only boyfriend. how sad. i am not someone who is going to ask out a guy. and yes i know that the worst that can happen is he will say no. but it seems so wrong when i tried it 2 times!! i wish i was outgoing in that form. I would just like you all to know that i am outgoing when i am with friends. to have the confidence and personality to ask out a guy would be amazing.

so my first boyfriend was actually the first guy I ASKED OUT!! but i will say now that it only lasted 18 hours. and the only date i went on with him was in our school cafateria. i had two oranges and he had a foot long pizza sub. (i thought it was so gross). and i remember it was during the winter, it was snowing out. it was so beutiful. so i comented on it. he looked at me and laphed, your kiding right, it is freezing out there. i knew this wasn't going to last when i felt the "water" falling on me. (if you havent caught onto what "water" is it is his saliva) that was so unplesent. not to mention that he has a very large hatred to those who believe in a higher power. so i was dating a guy who hates me yay!!

First Post

so this is my first post, and i highly doubt that anyone is going to read this. (then again if you are reading this i am mistaken) but i honestly don't care much about that. this blog is a place for me to put everything i am thinking in print. and to get responces about my thoughts. say what you want. i am want to hear everything and enything that you are thinking. i would like to make it know right now i CAN NOT spell and i can am terable at punctuation.